0 The power of forgetting

Saturday, August 13, 2011


That quote has been gnawing at my neglectful little brain this week. In this Age of Distraction, we allow ourselves to forget the ambitions most worth remembering.

Amongst the aspiring basketball players and marine biologists in my fifth-grade yearbook, my ambition stood alone: Writer. In college I studied it and went to every craft talk and reading, faithfully jotting little pieces of advice on How to Write Well from the writers who knew best. I happily spent hours in the library when I picked and prodded at and reconstructed my work until I felt it was as perfect as perfect could be. In college it was easy: there were deadlines, and professors to impress, and an entire built-in community of people who loved what I loved.

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And then, somewhere along the way, I forgot. I don't mean to say I altogether stopped writing, because that will never happen. My need to write is as fundamental as my needs to run outside on a beautiful day, and drink coffee when I wake up, and sing in the shower. Malawi was full of inspiration, and having lots of free time and no Internet made for an ideal writing environment, and over a year later, I have dozens of long rambling pieces about that life-altering experience begging to be touched again.



And France? France was eight months of indulgence: long dinners over confit de canard and carafes of Bordeaux wine, long conversations with strangers who spoke my favorite language, long nights playing and creating music with my new best friends. But yet have I gone through the notebooks I kept with me during long afternoons outside cafés in Bergerac. Yet have I racked my brain for the anecdotes of the musicians and bartenders who played pivotal roles in my year. I'm afraid they're already forgotten.



My point is this: Don't be afraid to admit that you've forgotten why you're Here. Reclaim your passion, whatever it is. The most successful people are those who build and build and build on what they've been given.

0 On this rainy day

Monday, May 16, 2011

I'm missing Bergerac sunshine.

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lounging by the river

1 St. Émilion

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


I got my disposable cameras developed from my last month in France and I love how the pictures turned out. I might actually start using disposables more often! The quality is very cool and kitcshy-looking, and it's super cheap to get them developed on a CD rather than getting prints. This first batch is from when my best friend was visiting and we spent a day in St. Émilion, a gorgeous vineyard town halfway between Bergerac and Bordeaux. St. Émilion is known for making some of the best wine in France, and we certainly supported the town's economy that day with the amount of bottles we bought.





wine caves

1 What I'm Missing

Friday, May 6, 2011

After sixteen hours of travel, I couldn't have been happier to see my parents and my dog waiting for me at the airport gate. On the drive home, I was like a kid coming home from camp: catching them up on my travels and my friends, and the ways I'm already scheming to come back. Then we ordered pizza and I fell into a deep sleep at approximately 9:30 pm.

But here's what I'm missing most this morning:

Pretty bars in Bordeaux

Open mic nights in Bergerac

Churches that make me cry

Faces like this one

And this one

1 Sunset at the Miroir

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


After a memorable dinner at L’Entrecôte, my close girlfriends and I watched the sunset at the Miroir d'Eau, a reflecting pool between the quai and Place de la Bourse. There were purple and pink clouds in the sky, and sailboats on the river, and we laughed and reminisced and shared a bottle of wine that I’d bought in St. Émilion to save for a special occasion. I couldn’t have asked for a better last night.

0 Entrecôte


Elise and I ate at L'Entrecôte last night, a famous steak restaurant that originated in Paris and now exists at numerous locations throughout France. At the one in Bordeaux, a line forms around the block before every lunch and dinner, so I had to see for myself what the fuss was about. The waitresses look like they're coming straight out of the 1950s in yellow polo shirts and low-heeled Mary Janes, and when they come to the table all they ask is how you'd like your meat cooked (the menu consists solely of red wine, steak, fries and ice cream sundaes). The best part of dinner is the secret sauce, which is tangy and buttery and best poured over everything. I didn't even miss my beloved ketchup.

I was too distracted by deliciousness to take a picture at the beginning of the meal. (Don't be fooled: everything you see here eventually disappeared.)

We sat next to a window on the second floor, with the sun going on behind us on picturesque Place Tourney.

0 Antiquing and daydreaming

Tuesday, May 3, 2011


Yesterday, my last full day in Bordeaux, Elise and I scoured the outdoor antique market at Quinconces. We had so much fun oogling the gorgeous furniture, chandeliers, and flatware, rifling through vintage jewelry, and daydreaming about how our own apartments would filled with things like those one day. I went home with a five-euro men's watch, a dainty cameo necklace, and two Les Modes Parisiennes prints from the 19th century.

0 Pub golf

Sunday, May 1, 2011

An epic final Saturday night in Bordeaux: 23 English and American expats dressed in golf attire, participating in organized challenges (catwalks, clothing swaps) and making mass pilgrimages between nine bars ("holes") throughout the city. It's nights like those that make me never want to grow up.

0 Beautiful people

Thursday, April 28, 2011


This week has been bittersweet on oh so many levels. I can't tell you how excited I am to see my family and friends at home (not to mention to catch up on months' worth of sleep and lose the French wine and cheese weight). I also have had to say good-bye to the many incredible people who became my surrogate family this year. The worst part is, being completely torn about settling in New York versus coming back to France, I just don't know which of them I'll see again.


But I also couldn't have asked for a better last night in Bergerac. We played at open mic at Plus que Parfait and almost everyone I've gotten to know and love this year was in the room. Hugo and I performed "Poker Face" and "Hey Ya" and we had so much fun. (I do a pretty good Andre 3000.. hahahaha...) Then a big group of us went back to Ellie's, where she and Hugo surprised me with a bottle of champagne for my last night and we all drank and jammed some more. The good-byes were tearful, but alas, it's only proof of what an impact these people will always have on me.



some photos (the really good ones) courtesy of ellie

1 April Travels Part II: Aix-en-Provence and Cassis

Tuesday, April 26, 2011



I studied abroad in Aix-en-Provence three years ago, and revisiting the city only reaffirmed my love for it. Even Elise has declared it her favorite city in France (over Bordeaux!). During our two days there, we went to Cézanne's workshop, shopped in the outdoor markets, and of course, ate and drank lots and lots of delicious things. Wednesday was a day trip to Cassis, which I had also visited the first time around, but this time it was spring and the sun was out - perfect for eating lunch outside and strolling along the beach with a gelato in hand. We took a boat ride into the calanques, which are breathtaking inlets in the Mediterranean. Afterwards we had a drink along the port and people-watched until the sun went down.

photos courtesy of elise